Social Net Worth

Well, the count is down to 20 days!

I am more than ready to be done with school..again. I'm glad that I made the decision to go back to school though; and it has been a great experience overall, looking past the social malnourishment that has been my life, anyway.

In reality, though, I have gotten used to not being very social. Once I graduated from SBU, and most everybody went their own separate ways, I found myself lacking that deep sense of being surrounded by close friends in community, sharing life together.

And then I got a job that drove me into isolation, consistently being awake when nobody else was; being asleep when everybody else was up and about...and lack of social interaction became my life. I got used to it, even started enjoying the time I spent alone in my thoughts. It can be very easy to be with yourself: there's no one to disagree with, or be uncomfortable around.

But one of the reasons I moved up here was to be closer to friends.

And here I find myself in the same situation. Laura and I both have these tendencies to become isolated; and I'm afraid we both bring out the worst in each other in that respect.

So even though we can legitimately use the excuse that right now we don't have a lot of free time, and that our schedules are non-conforming to the average working person's, those moments that we do have free we tend to spend at home, afraid--in a sense--to get out into the world and interact with people. Afraid to make that first step to meet new people and become involved in the lives of those around us.

That is a goal that we are trying to work toward. We have made some progress, but there is still much to be desired in this area.

Something I love about the start of a new day is the feeling it brings with it: anything can happen, let God take over and make it what it has potential to be.